I Wish You The Best

I'm so sick of you empty promises,

beating me down into the ground,

taking breaths, but swallowing dirt,

Nothing to do but cry,

when life loses hope,

you lose life,

so then why are you still here?

Waiting,

Watching,

Praying,

Deceiving,

lying,

cheating,

why can't you just leave me alone?

In my own denial.

#9 I am thankful for smiles. Any sort, evil, happy, trickery, sincerity, it doesn't matter. When someone smiles it makes me think, that maybe, just for a moment, they actually care, it is a natural process that the human body uses, denial of what is real, of what is true, of what is.

I Really Just Want To Be Creamated

Putting myself in ruins,

trying to escape out of this dirt hole,

ten feet deep,

filled with sorrow,

no remorse,

no guilt,

as they close in on me,

lift their shovels with pride,

with joy,

with satisfaction

#8 I am thankful for failure. How could I ever know what it feels like to succeed, truly succeed without the comprehension of what it is like to fail, truly fail. I am grateful that I can accept my own defeat even if it means, picking the headstone for my grave.

You Don't Even Know.......

I thought that maybe if I showed you my world,

opened up,

you'd see exactly where I have been,

walked my trails,

with soles worn out,

and a heart still racing,

where can I go from here?

#7 I am grateful for all the wonderful people on blogspot. I've never had people care about me as much as you, it's wonderful, all the talent that each person on here contains. This has gotten me through some ruff as hell times. I don't even know how to express my gratitude.

p.s (took this one my self, proud or what :P