I think I've gone mad

Useless, powerless,

is there any escape?

All I've ever wanted is freedom from your corruption,

like poison running through my veins.

Is being blissful a crime in your world of despair?

Suffocate me not with ideas of my suffering,

but free me to have an open mind and a gratified spirit.

But you fence me in,

as the walls of your hell rise around me,

feeling a singe as they start to enclose.

Have you no mercy to my cries,

no kindness towards my desperate yells,

leave my soul to burn, 

as my body remains intact,

perhaps I've gone mad.

#20 I guess I am thankful for my life, though many a times I will question that, being raised in a generation that has gone through more despair in a decade than earlier generations have gone through in a century does raise concern to me. It is almost as if suicide has become a popular trend and there is really no escaping your own thoughts. Sometimes it amazes me what the human mind can come up with, the intricacy of it all. Most people who I have come into contact in my life have never seen something wrong with me, they assume that I am just another crazy, ignorant teenager, who doesn't care about anything than what she has planned after school, which I can honestly say I am not, I'm just trying to get through life just as anyone else, but when you are raised in a society that believes in giving up so easily it becomes harder to be stronger. But overall I believe that there is something worth it in life and that if there wasn't we wouldn't have been here in the first place.

Stress

How can I handle a world,

that can barely handle me?

How can I break through a barrier,

when I barely have strength to breath?

How can I move mountains,

when I trip on pebbles in the sand,

Pitty is much easier to come up with,

than to make an actual plan.

#19 I have to say that I am thankful for school. Sometimes I question the reason as to why humans imparticular go to school, why us? What did we do to deserve this? Knowledge can be the most powerful and most harmful tool in our entire lives and school is exactly what gives us this knowledge and teaches us how to use it. I can't imagine ever being home-schooled, no matter how "similar" people may say it is, to me, it isn't not at all. I would have never met ninety-five percent of my friends had it not been for school. But when you think about it, I would have never created ninety-five percent of my problems had it not been for school. But that is what life is about gaining knowledge today and using it for tomorrow. To my teachers, all the faculty of the school, yes even that mean janitor on the first floor, thank you, not that I think they will ever read this :P

Freedom is overrated?

I told myself that once I was out of your grasp,

out from your hell,

from under your wing,

I would be free of you,

but here I am,

 indecisive,



chained to your charisma,

enslaved by your charm,

trapped through your smile,

where am I to go,

I reach toward the sky,

with my feet still on the ground,

cement blocks strapped to my feet,

wings crushed by your horror,

imagination destroyed by your manipulation,

hope disintegrate by your judgement,

but then again it was my fault,

for coming back to you again.

#16 I am thankful for that fact that I can learn from my mistakes, I have no idea how we as a whole would be able to move forward, become innovative, or quite frankly live, if we had not learned from our past. History repeats itself, people may seem changed but they never truly are, you can drill into a person's head what is right and wrong, but they will never truly understand what is outside of their own nature. If we can all find one fault in our selves then maybe we can come to accept two faults in someone else. We can find a reason to love instead of a reason to hate, and ultimately learn to come together on the things that we love, not be torn apart by them.

Up To The Sky, Just To Fall Back On The Ground

 

My feet were planted firmly on the ground

So why am I high in the sky right now?

Floating freely

but underneath sinking deeply

everything in life has a dark twist to it

almost as if we are never just "safe" 

I can try and pull my self out from underneath a black whole,

but do I really ever escape?

#13 I am grateful for having blogger in the first place, it has actually brought me some pretty cool experiences and I have been able to share my true feelings about anything and not have to feel like hiding them from the public (:

Procrastination

Let's get this done,

yes right now,

don't hold back,

let your energy build,

until it explodes,

it flies around,

given to others,

what was it I needed to do?

#5 I am definitely grateful for some of my failed valiant efforts, an example being this poem itself. I never knew that procrastination was this effective.

Welcome To My Life..

#4- I am thankful for all the experiences I have been able to have throughout my whole life. I have had so many good friends. Although I may have lost them, they were still there. That is what counts, right?